fooled.

first of all, i would like to wish to every bruneian, a happy 24th national day! hope you guys had a very good long weekend :D

so.... went out with the boissssss last night. yes i was the only girl. but that's no surprise. one of them is a japanese foreign exchange student, and i know for sure, that there are more than a few girls who has a crush on him. no offence, he's cute but i don't know. hahahahaha. anyhoos, we had a great time actually, even though we didn't do much. but i think i had more than enough =/ continue laaaaater mehhh! wuuhhuu! and i gotta wake up before 9 tmrw :( not to worry, after that it's semester break but then we have a few hours of make-up (no, bukannya cosmetics) classes to go toooooooooo. horrible i tell you! siggggghssss but what to do~

so, i have an ambuyat date later with a friend then prolly watching them ME 22 bois play futsal in JKR. so you better win bois hahaa.

to my dearest polly: i'm sorry. aku inda tau apa ku ckp di mlm ah AHHAHAHAHAHAA. =x did you check my car though? HAHAHA!!!!! opppsy.

hahahahahhaa.

you know what's funny? how some people think i'm dumb. that's funny! okay, there are times when i'm a bit bangang but hahahaha, i am not a bimbo eventhough i may look like one. i'm just plain ignorant.

seriously, hahaha. just because we're adults, and this is the era of modernisation or some crap like that, it doesn't give the reason for you to play around with ppls' feelings.

i'm just waiting for the moment where i'll blow up and slap these freaking ppl. :) and whoop their cute bums. don't take me for granted. seriously :)

oh god.

why is it that in every lecture of sociology of the body, the topic of ahem, sexual um intercourse, comes up? NAPA TU MAN?! NAPA TU LIYANA?! are we that sexually perverted? HAHAHA. and yes, as dr. mariam said, sex does overpowers everything sometimes. well, something that has sexual connotations attached anyways. and btw, we were talking about racism. how your skin colour reflects on how people treat you. but then the equation is, if i understood it rightly:

racism = 'caste' system = passed on by generation through sex. hahaha.

BUT THEN. as liyana (lee) pointed out, "feefy, you were right! sex is over rated!"

ya see, thank god i pointed that out. and fuck men. they fuck up your head and heart. they don't care fuck all about you; they just pretend to. no offence bois. there was a reason why i was such a late bloomer. the fact that i never could trust a guy. i guess because i've always had guy friends and i speculated and analysed a lot from them. okay okay, i'm being such a sexist here and i'm generalising all men but c'mon, seriously. i've let go of the past btw. so there you go, but i've also learned from the past. if a guy doesn't respect you in the first place, he will never do. and that is the problem with me, i suppose. i tend to be all rough-tough then i fall in love and get all smitten. and i'm weak. and then the guy practically stomps on me head. lol. i feel like krap by the end of the day. cry my eyes out, thinking he'll be there when you open your eyes but he has already gone farrrrrr away and he will never come back again. oh *sooobbbs* i've gone all emo and angry now. hahaha. it's all the literature i do! blame the drama on that! HAHAH!

so no offence to anyone who got somewhat offended. it's all general. and besides, my opinion doesn't matter. my opinion is from one girl, and that's like, what, in god-knows, within how many girls that are out there? and since when do people care about how i feel like? ESEH. hahaahaha.

btw. have i ever mentioned that my blog is incredibly explicit? =x

ouch.

god. this is pathetic. i am stronger. but i can't do this. what is wrong with me? i gotta concentrate on other things. i just hope they know but guess not :) apparently. i'm not worth it. i have nothing to offer. sighs.

pol: CAPIE :P HAHA. i was looking okay?

aiman: HAHAHA. malas ku lai. sanak ku udah kanak2 nya ah. hahaha. sian ku plg. hahahaa. jgn lupa gambar ku ayu ah =x

awwww.

i've just finished reading this girl's comments about getting a scholarship and ubd. ahahahhaa. so cute. lol. first of all, if smwhat the girl managed to find her way through here, i would like to say that i'm sorry that people insulted you that way. hahahaha. but yeh, in a way, you deserved it plg. hahahaha. i've studied in the UK, doing BSc. Psychology. i may no be as smart as you but yeh, but i don't think that was the case. the case was 'cos i was fooling around too much. but whatever the case is yeh, some courses might be harder than others but guess what, UBD is hard as well, surprisingly. and the courses do not necessarily lead to teaching, even if you were taking a course in education. it's funny sometimes how people can be as dumb and ignorant. loool. sad really. i am currently doing a major in english, and no, not a teaching course and a minor in sociology-anthropology. yeh, i thought before i went to ubd that they offered a limited number of courses but yeh, apparently UBD offers shitloads of courses so poo you girl for not finding out more.

i am currently in gadong's coffeezone, bored out of my shitless mind and there are no goddamn hot guys. wtf is wrong with todaaaaaaaaaaaaay? :( god, sometimes being single sucks but then sometimes being single feels like i'm not single. hahaha. FANTASTIC BOIS! FANTASTIC!

thus my msn nick says, "Pp: bois' hearts are filled w vomit, krap & maggots. thats why they cant help being an ass smtimes."

HAHAH. :D

lazy wednesday.

it's my free day. went to vocal class.. like the last half an hour of it. HAHAHA. but yeh, whatever. then i'm waiting for my friend to take me out but instead, im in de fountain, going online and etc. i seriously should start reading my freaking notes. BUT NOOOOOOOOOO pi, you're so smart sometimes that you think you don't need to. and i need to start freaking do my work as well. BUT this is why i need a man. wait no, a personal assistant 'cos i keep forgetting to do stuffs which includes eating.. sometimes la.

ive got readings to go through for my narrative studies and language & discourse. not only the font is so small, there's a lot of things that i honestly don't understand until i've read it more than 3 times. hahahhaa.

and i want to get new skinnies. :(

Gong Xi Fa Chai

god i haven't posted in eons. ahahahaha. well, skool started a few weeks ago, and i'm not gonna lie and say that it has taken up most of my  time but i have to wake up early nearly everyday so i'm tired to do anything by the time i get back. even if i'm not, i'll be preoccupied with something else.

anyhoos, to serious stuff. i think the level of my intoxication intake as well as my ciggie intake as bloody well increased which is such a shame in a way. but i'm loving it cos it keeps me happy. getting personal here but i'm in a sticky situation atm, where i don't know what i want. am i trying to be safe because i'm afraid to be hurt? but then i've always been safe, and not much of a risk-taker. well, sometimes maybe la. but it depends. most of the time i'm so paranoid and get scared off easily. i run away. a lot. i have tried sorting out my situation but then i'm not really getting that much support from people, thus hope has diminished. i love my friends and family but it's the same crap from people. and it seems that they don't know how it feels like. so yeh. 

to happier things, i have been shopping.. which is bad cos i've got a little amount of money yet. please oh god, give me a rich hot guy so he can spoil me rotten. HAHAHA. u guys should check out Flora Culture, which i found out belongs to a cousin and i got a free tongue stud! woohoo! they sell flowers, like orchids which doesn't look fake though. hahaha. and cute bags and shirt. i bought two bags from the store and i love it cos of the graffiti printings on them. 

watched "Pretty Woman" for sociology of the body a few hours ago and it's been that long since i last watched it that i forgot how the story line went. a typical disney cinderella movie.  it had a lot of cliches but the freaking movie was so sweet i wanted to slap richard gere and julia roberts. fucking hell. and the girls, including moi, started singing when an old Roxette song came on, "it must've been love" HAHA. anyhoots, the main aim for watching the movie is because of how julia roberts is perceived in the movie, because of how she dressed, talked and how people reacted when they knew she was a *koooffffs* prostitute. 

so. i'm going now cos i need to go and piss. it's been raining the past few days. and i is to the loving the weather... except that it makes me go to the loo all the time.