Gong Xi Fa Chai

god i haven't posted in eons. ahahahaha. well, skool started a few weeks ago, and i'm not gonna lie and say that it has taken up most of my  time but i have to wake up early nearly everyday so i'm tired to do anything by the time i get back. even if i'm not, i'll be preoccupied with something else.

anyhoos, to serious stuff. i think the level of my intoxication intake as well as my ciggie intake as bloody well increased which is such a shame in a way. but i'm loving it cos it keeps me happy. getting personal here but i'm in a sticky situation atm, where i don't know what i want. am i trying to be safe because i'm afraid to be hurt? but then i've always been safe, and not much of a risk-taker. well, sometimes maybe la. but it depends. most of the time i'm so paranoid and get scared off easily. i run away. a lot. i have tried sorting out my situation but then i'm not really getting that much support from people, thus hope has diminished. i love my friends and family but it's the same crap from people. and it seems that they don't know how it feels like. so yeh. 

to happier things, i have been shopping.. which is bad cos i've got a little amount of money yet. please oh god, give me a rich hot guy so he can spoil me rotten. HAHAHA. u guys should check out Flora Culture, which i found out belongs to a cousin and i got a free tongue stud! woohoo! they sell flowers, like orchids which doesn't look fake though. hahaha. and cute bags and shirt. i bought two bags from the store and i love it cos of the graffiti printings on them. 

watched "Pretty Woman" for sociology of the body a few hours ago and it's been that long since i last watched it that i forgot how the story line went. a typical disney cinderella movie.  it had a lot of cliches but the freaking movie was so sweet i wanted to slap richard gere and julia roberts. fucking hell. and the girls, including moi, started singing when an old Roxette song came on, "it must've been love" HAHA. anyhoots, the main aim for watching the movie is because of how julia roberts is perceived in the movie, because of how she dressed, talked and how people reacted when they knew she was a *koooffffs* prostitute. 

so. i'm going now cos i need to go and piss. it's been raining the past few days. and i is to the loving the weather... except that it makes me go to the loo all the time.